Friday, July 31, 2009

Page 764: Hal is Sad


And this feels ominous for both me and the Moms:

(Moms To Mario:)

"Is there someone specific in whom you're intuiting sadness?"

"Is this about Hal? Is Hal sad and for some reason not yet able to speak about it?"

"And you have no idea where he is or whether he left the grounds this evening sad?"


"Hypothetically, then, you may be picking up in someone a certain very strange type of sadness that appears as a kind of disassociation from itself, maybe, Love-o"


'Well, love, but you know the idiom "not yourself" - "He's not himself today," for example,' crooking and uncrooking fingers to form quotes on either side of what she says, which Mario adores. 'There are, apparently, persons who are deeply afraid of their own emotions, particularly the painful ones. Grief, regret, sadness. Sadness especially, perhaps. Dolores describes these persons as afraid of obliteration, emotional engulfment. As if something truly and thoroughly felt would have no end or bottom. Would become infinite and engulf them."

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